Today is my husband's 40th birthday and it's got me thinking about age. Even though 40 seems like such a big number (and I was 40 a couple of years back now), this day, today, I realised that I am younger than I will ever be again.
It seems obvious, right? But I'm sure it's something we forget in our day-to-day scrabble through the density of life.
I tend to look in the mirror nowadays and wonder who is this middle-aged woman looking back, especially because I feel the same inside as I've felt for 20-odd years.
But it's dawned on me that some day in the future I will look back at the photos of myself now, and probably notice how young and fresh-faced I was 'back then'. Haven't you done that with photos of your parents, or your grand-parents?
I am at a line in the sand that I will never come back to. So I just wanted to say to any of you out there who, like me, have despaired when looking in the mirror: youth (and beauty) is all relative,and completely subject to reinterpretation in hindsight.
So smile and enjoy now. Because you're worth it.
I've been thinking the same thing lately! Trying to remind myself that I thought I was horrid looking at 20. Now I would luuuurve to look like that again, so if I keep scrabbling around this rock long enough, there will come a day when I think what I have today looks good.
ReplyDeleteThe other aging-related issue I've been trying to get Zen with is that this is definitely a time where the upper-middle class (and beyond) has a big advantage. Imagine being able to get weekly facials, buy the $600 cream, go in for annual laser/fractal/radial treatments (or whatever the current fad is). But this is our lot in this lifetime, so I guess I'd better just become one of those engaging middle aged gals that glows from within! x tj
TJ I would rather see your glow from within than anything a fractal treatment could do to your face. No matter what the cost, a within-glow is worth so much more. xxx
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